Have you ever traveled ALONE? Just you and yourself? I didn’t and this was my first trip ALONE WITH MYSELF: in the WADI RUM desert in JORDAN (e-SPECTACULAR). I never thought I will ever travel alone, not to think to Jordan’s Wadi Rum Desert that I didn’t even know that it exists. But hey, never say never. And I think that was not my last time traveling alone, I REALLY LOVED IT! Not much planning, not much preparing, zero expectations (funny enough all my friends had more expectations than I did, after all, hahahaha), just LETS DO IT and lets “meditate” AND SEE WHAT THE UNIVERSE OFFERS ME.

GOD, ANGELS, SPIRIT GUIDES: WHAT A CRAZY IDEA!

How I ended up traveling alone and to Wadi Rum? Ha. That is quite a story but it will be long enough for another post … But let me tell you: when I had to get up at 4am to catch my first flight, without really knowing where I will sleep and what I had to expect when I cross to Middle East: I cursed all guides, the universe, god and angels and everyone that came up with this CRAZY idea! Hahaha

6th May 2021. Corona time travels are not easy with all the tests and not many flights are going now anywhere, but that is really great since there are no people traveling and it is more peaceful and silent. And if you really want to travel and are not scared, you can always travel, it is more difficult but not impossible, the choice is yours.

IT IS NOW OR NEVER

My adventure started already when they canceled my flight from Barcelona to Aqaba (the closest city to Wadi Rum desert) one month before my flight was supposed to take place (apparently Royal Jordanian Airlines doesn’t fly now from Spain to Jordan, corona reason). But no problem, I knew it was THE time for my trip, so I researched and there were flights from Frankfurt to Amman and from there to Aqaba and since I have a German passport (now with Corona restrictions all helps) and I could even see my mother at the Frankfurt airport for few hours (I haven’t seen her for a long time because of corona lock down), so I booked it!

THERE ARE NO PROBLEMS; THERE ARE ONLY SOLUTIONS

Then again, two days before my flight, they have postponed the flight from Amman to Aqaba (It is domestic short flight from the capital to the city close to Wadi Rum desert) which meant I was stuck in Amman two nights instead of one. No way! I want the desert, not city. The “original” plan (when does the origin really start…?) was to sleep at the airport after landing and wait for the flight to Aqaba the day after (I never did sleep at the airport when I was a teenager and now with my 40+ OMG!), so two nights were out of the question.

UNIVERSE IS ALWAYS WATCHING OUT FOR ME

But since the universe has my back, at the end when I got out of the plane in Amman at night I had a message from my guide. ´- Yes, that was the only planned thing I did before leaving home (as I am not as crazy as many think ;): I have found, by some magical universe connection: a recommendation form someone with my initials KK (always reading the signs): a local guide, that btw: if you want to have a fantastic authentic desert experience, DEFINITELY contact EID Instagram @wadi_rum_eid_travelling ) – The whatsapp message was: “My brother will pick you up when you arrive” (even though there were corona restrictions and driving after 6pm was not allowed in Jordan), therefore no need to wait for the postponed flight. Yalllaaa, there we go!

AFTER 24h TRAVELING THERE WAS THE DESERT!

The drive was super nice & Abdulah was the perfect driver! We picked up ONE wife and two daughters, we had time to have some tea and sweets at the family place in a city close to Amman, and then, there I was, on the road to the unknown desert Wadi Rum, with NO IDEA where I was going and where I was staying, who were those people: but it all felt RIGHT and I was super excited! Finally after 24h traveling, in the middle of the night and changing the car in the Wadi Rum Village without knowing who I was and where I was, from the exhaustion, I arrived in the desert and million and more stars and fabulous Milky Way was shining for me. YES, it WAS all-RIGHT.

WOKE UP IN A SAUNA  AFTER COLD NIGHT

This night I slept with jacket and 2 blankets inside the camp tent. Next day I woke up and I felt like I was in the sauna!!!! I had to take off my jacket, sweater, all the blankets, I opened the door and the window and beautiful air came in. But the sun was hitting my legs and there was no way I wanted to sleep, even though I was super comfy in my cute camp tent bed. I had to get out and check where I was…

BETTER THAN I WOULD HAVE EVER DREAMED OF

WOW!!!!!! HOW BEAUTIFUL is that place!!!! All you could see was the desert and the carved by nature HUGE MOUNTAINS all around far far away and the sand in-between as far as you could see … SPECTACULAR.
The camp itself was in the PERFECT SPOT: well protected by huge beautiful mountains in the back and in front the GORGEOUS view of the open desert. AMAZING! I don’t wanna leave. I wanna stay here. That was IT. EMPTY, since it was covid and Ramadan. No people, no tourists. Perfect time to be alone and the perfect place to do it. I have made it!!! And I felt sooooo good and free. I was alone. No one to please, no one to talk to, no one to listen to, just me. Wow.

SCARY NIGHT IN THE PRINCESS BED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DESERT

Ok, the second night and the first night REALLY alone was kinda difficult. I had my princess bed outside in the middle of the camp. The stars, the darkness, silence, some animals making noise, the lantern in my hand and my eyes wide open, not to enjoy the stars, but to be AWARE if someone or something gets close. But what??? Impossible. Darkness. Our mind and fear is amazing, though: “I can hear something, what is that???!!! Who is that???!!!” “Oh, it is just my stomach making noises” … Relax. No one is here. Nothing will happen. OK. Enjoy the stars. I fell asleep. I woke up. Darkness. Stars. Silence. I fell asleep again. Woke up. Darkness. Silence. Stars. Too much for me of the universe and myself, I went inside the camp tent, closed the door and window, even though I could not lock it, but I felt protected by the 4 cute red fabric walls.

MEDICINE WHEEL ACTIVATED AND MY PROTECTION IS ON

Next night alone, I was already super prepared, I even made by myself for myself a medicine wheel, my sacred space around my bed outside and I felt and I WAS not only super protected, but also guided and taught by my spirit guides and all the guides of this beautiful desert. No need for medicine or anything else to connect and feel and heal, we all have the power to do it, inside, we just need to get to it and unlock it… Yes, indeed, crazy, eh?
This night I REALLY ENJOYED THE MILLION + 1 STAR. And the Milky Way is soooo beautiful here!

CONNECTING TO THE GUARDIANS OF WADI RUM DESERT

The days were more than perfect. Since I didn’t stress out to be sitting 24h/day with my eyes closed “on a cushion and meditate”, I really enjoyed connecting to the mountains all around that camp, talking to myself and to all that was invisible around me, since there was nothing visible close by. In every direction there are different mountains, different shapes, different colors… And I could see the faces of the guardians of that place, feel them, all over and in each direction different ones. I found a beautiful cave with a spectacular view over the desert just by the camp without moving much, where I even had a super nice and cold air coming out of the narrow but tall opening between the rocks. I guess that would be the Bedouin Air Conditioning, natural and just right.

CANYON CLIMBING BEYOND MY LIMITS

Some days I went with my guide on beautiful excursions through the SPECTACULAR Wadi Rum Desert. One day I had to climb some crazy high, vertical, slippery, narrow canyon walls, that in my “previous life” I would turn around with fear only by looking at it from far, but now: I climbed all the way through to get to this magnificent spot in the middle of this humongous narrow canyon with trees, beautiful red colors, sand, birds, peace and silence. It was definitely worth it! Nature is amazing.

LIKE A CAPTURED FLY IN A SPIDER WEB

How I did it? I have no idea! Hahahaha. But when I was standing in front of the wall and I thought that is the end of our walk, my guide said: take off your shoes, we climb this wall. And he started to climb it like a Spiderman even though he had thawb on (his long dress) and additionally he was carrying our food & water, hanging it all nicely in my Moroccan 8m scarf around him. What a spectacle!

It was THE MOMENT of overwhelm and fear and I thought of Joe Dispenza (one of my quantum physics idols): BREAK THE HABIT OF BEING YOURSELF! Loose fear and step beyond your limits! There you go! Ayiwa! And let me tell you, I am not a climber: I have zero strength in my arms and I am scared of heights.
But I did it and I was super proud of myself, especially on my way back, because climbing up, well, still with help ok, but to go down: wow I did suffer and at one point I had “a moment for myself” and I was stuck in the middle like a “captured fly in a spider web” and I needed to breath and concentrate before moving on and not falling.

KNOWING THE TIME BY OBSERVING THE SUN & STARS NOT THE WATCH

Another RELEASE for me was to take off my watch and it didn’t matter what time it was! The first day it was strange not to know what time it is: is it already time to get up, to eat, to shower, to sleep… But at the end: why does it matter and why is THE WATCH that decides for us? I ate when my stomach made noise and FELT HUNGRY, I went to sleep when I FELT SLEEPY, I got up when I was rested… I figured out when is the time that the sun moves and the shade moves, just so I moved my meditation spot. That was what was important at that moment for me: shade. And at night I could even tell if I slept much or not when waking up, just by looking at the orientation of the Milky Way: it is so obvious once you can read it. Fabulous!

TOMATOES AND CUCUMBER WITH HUMMUS

There was no plan for eating or not eating, but the easy part for me was not eating much, since for years already, I don’t have breakfast and my first meal is usually late lunch. – Some call it intermediate fasting (?): I don’t like using the names someone came up with since I ALWAYS do what feels good for me ( YOUR body YOUR temple) and it might not match the exact definition of “intermediate fasting” – But I need my coffee in the morning. But here I had my tea, delicious indeed and no need for coffee. When I felt hungry I grabbed a tomato and a cucumber with some hummus from the cooling box and I was satisfied. I was not moving, not wasting energy, therefore no need for food, anyways. The good energy from the air and heart is enough to feel full as I have already experienced on my first trip to the desert, in the Moroccan Sahara. And that was what I wanted: FEELING GOOD WITH NO EATING; NO TALKING; NO MOVING!

FEELING LIKE A BABY THAT EATS FOR THE FIRST TIME SOLID FOOD

Dinners were fun, since it was Ramadan, and everyone ate late and delicious. One day my guide took me to eat with his sisters family, which was the most special experience, indeed. In the middle of the desert, dry, flat, silence, nothing around, wow, spectacular ambience! A pickup car and a rug spread on the ground and family talking Arabic, I did not understand, but I could feel it was all much happiness, laughs, storytelling and for me it was like another part of my meditation, just silence in my head, peace, happiness, appreciation.

Then: “Wash your hands”. I was supposed to eat with my hand and I thought: finally I feel not like a tourist! And it would be no problem at all for me if I knew HOW TO MOVE THE delicious food into my mouth. 😅
I really wanted to eat more of this delicious dish, but there was no way, too difficult for the first time for me. I felt like a baby, when it touches food for the first time with its fingers and doesn’t really know what to do with it 🙂 And why is it considered “sophisticated”, in our culture, to eat with silverware? Are we more “sophisticated”? What is being sophisticated, anymore? Touching the food you eat with your hands is much more fun, besides, you really know and feel what you are eating. At the end we all slowly realize that all the ancient cultures have more wisdom than many studied people, silverware or not. Besides, WHO ARE WE to decide what is “correct” and what is not?…

ANYWHERE SOMEWHERE IN NOWHERE

This night dropping me back to the camp, while we were driving through the darkness of this humongous magical desert with all the shiny 1001+ stars, my guide was looking for the camels that had to be fed and given water (the baby camel just had few days! in LOVE). Checking for the footsteps and listening to the noises to find them ANYWHERE SOMEWHERE IN NOWHERE, in the dark desert. It impacted me a lot. Bedouin life is hard but beautiful. Such a huge connection with pachamama and all this with such an ease. The moment the camels got the food and water once we found them, what a pleasure it was just watching them in peace, silence and full darkness.

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON

When my time in the desert was almost over, I had to go to Aqaba for my PCR test in order to be able to board the plane two days later in Amman (nowadays it is more important having the PCR test than the flight ticket). When I got to the Lab where supposedly they do the test: “NO, WE ARE NOT DOING PCR TESTS!” Problem. Big problem but no problem for the Bedouin. Lucky my guide has always a solution for everything and we went to the store (beautiful cute store with a lot of great gift ideas and more) of his best friend @bedouinhousejo to figure out next step.

With a lot of resistance to be connected with the world, again, I turned on my phone to find an email from my flight company with a CHANGE OF FLIGHT! I almost got heart attack: they have advanced my flight one day, meaning my flight was taking off TOMORROW in the morning from AMMAN (which are 4 hours drive from the desert) and I was in Aqaba and did not even know where to do my PCR test!!!! I started crying. But with help of my guide and his friend and all the people that entered the shop (also HUGE thanks for trying to help @smakJordanii ), they found a place for PCR. The friend drove me there, my test was done and results came even quicker than thought.

After beautiful sightseeing and lunch in Aqaba with my helpers, we were on the way back to the desert to pack my stuff and at 3am my taxi was taking me to Amman airport and my flight to Frankfurt (where I had now one more night to wait in order to take my flight to Barcelona, but as usual: for everything there is a reason and I could spend one night at my mothers place to catch up).

ENJOYING BEING MYSELF WITH MYSELF

At the end, when I am thinking of the beginning and ending, with all things that happened “unexpectedly” with all the changes before and during this trip, with all the non-planning and loosing control, one thing that led to the other: all was just imperfectly perfect, all had to be the way it was supposed to be, and at the time it had to be, AS USUAL AND ALWAYS.
No other dates, no other places, no other people, no other activities. It all was made for me. Therefore: GRATEFUL for all that the universe thought me here. For all the crying, cleaning emotions, connecting with my soul and the universe, laughing, fearing, going beyond all limits, loosing control, empowering, having fun, not having coffee and ENJOYING BEING MYSELF and being WITH MYSELF.

EVERYONE SHOULD TRAVEL ALONE AT LEAST ONCE IN LIFE

Great food great people great place GREAT EXPERIENCE of traveling ALONE to the most spectacular DESERT – WADI RUM, definitely. And more trips to WADI RUM will follow, so stay tuned. We will organize many magical retreats and workshops of many kinds to this incredible place, for everyone that is ready to have a magical experience in the desert, inshalah!

Any questions you have, write me, I would LOVE to help as much as I can.

And HUGE THANKS for ALL HELP and ORGANIZATION in Jordan to:

@Wadi_Rum_Eid_Travelling
@BedouinHouseJo
@SmakJordanii

SHUKRAN my friends! See you soon!

DREAM BIG & FLY HIGH